The Official Break Up :( I’m so heartbroken..
I’ve been having a bad week.
Then two nights ago I was texting my boyfriend asking him how he thought about me and what he thinks of me so far in knowing me. He responded with, “Hmm you’re a great person I believe”. So I replied, “That’s it?” And then he said, “Your sadness is unpleasant sometimes :/” and I said, “That’s all you have to say?” And he said, “I can’t think of anything right now because I’m buzzed as fuck”. So I said, “K I’ll talk to you later then.” And he said, “Alright…” And I said, “Bye”. He said, “Adios”.
I didn’t text him on Monday because I was busy the whole day, and he didn’t attempt to text me either.
Today in the morning I said, “Hey I want to see you today before class. Are you down?” He said, “Ahh I just woke up.. I can’t guarantee it but I’ll try”. So I said, “Umm… ohk.. Let me know I guess.” We met up. But it was weird. I thought maybe he was just tired. Then he just said, “I’m gonna go to class now.” So I walked him. But then he just gave me a hug. I was expecting a kiss…
So I texted him a few minutes later asking, “What’s wrong? Are you ok?” And he replied, “Not really.. Kira, are you happy in this relationship?” I asked, “Why are you asking?” And he said, “Cuz as of lately I haven’t” and I said, “Why?” And he said, “Idk.. I just haven’t”. I asked, “Since when?” and he said, “Like a week or so”. I replied with, “You don’t like me…” And he said, “I’m just not happy.. And yeah not as much anymore /:” My heart stopped. I asked, “What’s wrong with me?” And he said, “Nothing.. Your a great gf. You’ve treated me very very well. Your beautiful, no, gorgeous inside and out. I just feel like I haven’t grown more attached to you.” So I said, “At all?” And he said, “No :(” and so I said, “We only met like a few months ago though what do you expect…” He said, “Yeah I know.. But if I’m feeling this way now, what’s to say I don’t feel this way months from now. It isn’t fair to u”. So I said, “I feel like you didn’t try or something. And I also feel like you actually don’t really care about me. So if you don’t want to try or make things better, then fine it’s over. Done. Goodbye.” That was my last text to him. He replied with, “I do care about u as a person.. But I’m sorry. Goodbye” and that was the last text from him.
I was crying so much. I really really liked this guy. I liked him so much that I had sex without a condom with him because I felt like we were ready and that we were going to be together for at least a while longer. I did put up with his shit though while being in this relationship. I can’t believe he said “a week or so” because we just fucked last Thursday, and that was less than a week ago. I just wanna say FUCK YOU! He really didn’t try. And he really didn’t care about me. He didn’t give A SHIT about me.
And yet I’m so heartbroken. My heart really hurts.. I don’t think you have any idea..
It says on my fb that I’m in a relationship, it doesn’t say with who anymore. Ervin changed his relationship status to “single” 34 minutes ago. Some girl liked it. Why the FUCK would you like that status. I will cut someone.
♥ 1 Notes / Tue May 1st, 2012 ≡ reblog
Ellen Degeneres is hilarious, she’s gonna make me laugh all the way to the grave!!
♥ / Mon Apr 9th, 2012 ≡ reblogwaiting for my period to come so I can start my birth control
and my period better fucking come… cuz if it doesn’t then that means I’m going to have to run over to Rite Aid and purchase myself a pregnancy test :o
♥ / Mon Apr 9th, 2012 ≡ reblog
